Home from the concert!~10.26.09

I just got home from the concert band/jazz band concert. It was pretty good. I really liked this piece that concert band performed. It was called "Disney at the Movie." As for jazz band, I always enjoy everything they play. ^_^ I wanted to go and support Jeffrey, since I've only been to one band concert. He only said one word to me though: "Hey." I mean, I can't really complain because that's still better than what I had expected and was preparing for. I didn't think he was going to say anything to me; I didn't even think that he was really going to notice that I was there. I guess it's good that he acknowledged my existence. I told him "good job," and he just laughed...I can't decide whether it was because he didn't think they did a very good job, or if he thought I was being sarcastic. I truly believe that he knows I went for him though...whether he's in denial or not. I believe that; he's not that stupid.

Something hit me today. I can't get myself to focus on anything. My mind is so full with...stuff. I'm not myself; there's definitely something wrong with me. Take the spring musical for example. Anyone that knows me knows that I am really dedicated to our spring musical. I've been doing musicals every year since the 6th grade, and I've gotten a good number of lead roles. The sad thing is that we got our audition script and music about two weeks ago, and I just managed to make myself pick it up and look at it for the first time TODAY. I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel like there's so much on my mind. I can't think straight. Normally, I would've had the audition piece and everything memorized from top to bottom, left to right, front to back. I would've watched the movie already and looked up the character analysis, but I've done nothing this year. I get sad every single time we sing "Music of My Heart" in Chamber Choir because it reminds me of Jeffrey. My friend Sara was talking about how every time we sang that song, she would picture her boyfriend busting through the door and tell her everything will be okay. (She and her boyfriend were going through some rough times.) When she said that, it made me realize how much I wanted that. I want Jeffrey to just come and tell me that everything will be okay. I really do. I nearly cried when we were singing that song today. I couldn't even sing all the words because I would start choking up. It was bad. Now I just randomly tear up because the thought of him telling me everything will be okay will just come to my mind whenever they please. It must sound really pathetic. >.<

Oh yeah, I drew pictures on the foggy windows of Jason's car today. I was bored, and he was doing homework. He was going to go to Books-A-Million (BAM), but we ended up just sitting in his car in the parking lot. -_-;







"Battlefield" by Jordin Sparks is one of Jason's new favorite songs, but he doesn't like to admit it.

My favorite by far...

♫ Music of My Heart - NSYNC feat. Gloria Estefan

Spirit Week~10.25.09

This past week was spirit week at school. It was pretty fun. ^_^ Here's a picture of Jason and me on Tacky Twin Day. LOL XD



My favorite days HAVE to be Class Color Day and Green and Gold Day though because seniors get to wear our crowns!!! I'll have to take better pictures of my crown and shirts and post them up another day. They're washing right now. ^^; On Class Color Day, the colors are: Seniors - Blue, Juniors - Red, Sophomores - Black, Freshmen - Gray. Green and Gold Day is pretty self-explanatory. Green and gold are our school colors. :)

Who knows what Cheyenne and Sarah were doing...

...so we tried again. =P

Me and my favorite guard girl, Cierra!!! Even though it may not look like it, we weren't ready when Sam took this picture. XD

So we tried again too!!!

Sam and Me

Sam, Me, and Cierra

Sarah and Me

Seniors in Chamber Choir...we're a small group this year.

English Class

Michael and Me

Jason and Jeffrey in the three-legged race during field day

Jason getting owned XD

Green and Gold Day ^_^

Cierra

Keddrick and Me

Seniors on Green and Gold Day

Chamber Choir on Green and Gold Day

My co-worker and I went out to lunch today! ^_^ Afterwards, we went to the pet store and played with the cutest puppy ever!!! Then we went to the mall and he bought me something for my birthday since it's coming up soon (November 2nd!). He bought me Prada perfume for $100. I felt so bad! I told him not to, but he wouldn't listen. T_T I've never even smelled the scent before, so I have no clue what it smells like.

The Prada Perfume

PUPPY!!!











It was teething...^^;

♫ the Love Bug - m-flo ♥ BoA

6:52?!?!?! OH NO!!!!!!!!!~10.13.09

I overslept badly this morning. >.< It was HORRIBLE. I'm a really deep sleeper, and it's even worse when I'm in the middle of a vivid dream. I woke up at 6:52AM this morning (YES...6:52AM), and the late bell rings at 7:15AM. Thankfully, I made it on time though. Man, I felt like such a beast. XD

I still don't really know what to sing for my performance on November 8th. I thought about singing "And I'm Telling You I'm Not Going." I sang that at our school's talent show my sophomore year. I ended up winning first place with that song. I haven't sang it in forever though. If I'm going to sing it, I'll need to practice...and practice...and practice some more. Hehe! ^^;

So apparently, we're taking our senior class group photo tomorrow. Thank goodness someone told me. I was about to go to school in sweats again like I've been doing since the third day of school. -_- I don't feel like for changing every day for fourth period (marching band), so I just go to school in work-out clothes. =P There's not really anyone that I need to impress at school anyways, so it's all good. I'll start wearing normal clothes again next month when we no longer have to practice the show everyday.

Also, I wrote a note to Jeffrey early last week...I finally gave it to him yesterday. I hate writing letters, but I'm just not brave enough to say some things face-to-face. I'm not sure how he took it...but we'll see. I miss him.





♫ Party in the USA - Miley Cyrus

I MADE IT!!!~10.12.09

So...do you remember how I was talking about my audition? I MADE IT!!! I'm one of the 36 contestants for the teen vocalist competition! You can check it out at www.ripthehallways.com ^_^v I'm really excited! I get to perform in an actual coliseum!!! It's going to be a dream come true.

Also, my principal approved my solo benefit concert. It's going to be happening some time next year...probably in April.

Jason and I are talking again. Things with Jeffrey, on the other hand, haven't changed. I actually found out that he still likes this girl that he's liked for years who will never give him the time of day. It really hurts me to know that because he deserves so much more than what she has to offer. He could do a lot better. He deserves a lot better. On a brighter note, he actually gave me a real hug for the first time in forever when I told him that I'm a contestant on Friday night. It may not sound like a lot, but it made me really happy.

I was looking on Strapya the other day, and I found these really cute cell phone decorations. I'm so tempted to buy some, but I think I'll wait until next month. It'll be my little birthday present to myself, I guess. Hehe! ^^;

Well, it's been a while...I think it's finally time for some PICTURES!!! Get ready for picture overload! XD



Me & Kris


My Hero <3


My new coat from Express ^_^


Me & Jason at the concert

♫ Now That She's Gone - JJ Lin